Wow...how times gets away from me. Ethan is 8 1/2 months old now. Crawling, pulling up, taking little steps as he plays with his toys. He is getting so big and strong. He says "da-da" ALL THE TIME! :) Nathan is quite proud...and honestly, I am proud for him. He is such a good dad. I couldn't ask for better.
Over the past month or so I have been quite burdened in my life in regards to church and my relationship with Christ. Growing up I was very involved in church and enjoyed all the relationships that I built there. I know that God has had me in his hands all this time, molding me into the person I am today. Although I know that he is with me, I have chosen to lead a life over the past few years that does not involve what he may have for my life. Nathan and I have started visiting a church recently that we both enjoy. The people are nice and the music is wonderful. Most importantly, the message and preaching touch me deeply and inspire me to make changes in my life.
Last weekend Ethan and I went to church by ourselves because Nathan had to work. The sermon was about "The Irresistible Wife." In short, I am a "good" wife but I don't think I am a Godly wife. A Godly wife is not a control freak like me, with something to say about every little thing...she calmly prays for her husband and follows him in the direction that God has set for their lives. Not that she doesn't have input but her words to her husband should be supportive in so many ways. I am praying daily that I will surrender to this type of living. I honestly believe that if I can let go of the control that I seek so much I will find a peace like I have never had before. For so long I have enjoyed the "chaos" of my life but suddenly I find myself longing for the calm of the day. I know that this calm can be found in Christ and the life I should be living in Him.
I am not sure what many of you will think of this post but I am ready to start a new sort of journey. One where I feel fulfilled and my family is full of joy. I want to commit to His purpose once again. So, here I go. Thanks for listening. :)
Wonderful post Melanie!! Keep seeking God in every moment every day and you will see his blessings keep pouring out on your life!! I too have been seeking God to help me become a Godly wife. A wonderful book is The Power of a Praying Wife(me and my books lol) It has helped me immensely along with seeking out other Christian wives to turn to when I need prayer. If you ever need encouragement I myself know the journey is challenging and would love to pray for you. Praying out loud is one of the best changes I have made over the past year! Love you and proud of your testimony!
ReplyDeleteI was pondering this exact thing today - it's a constant struggle for me. Thank you for posting. I had no idea you were a blogger! :) - Traci
ReplyDeleteStephanie - Thank you for the book suggestion! I would love and appreciate your prayers. You are such a blessing in my life!!
ReplyDeleteTraci - blogging is fairly new for me and I don't keep up with it well. :) I have good intentions. I will be praying for you. I am not quite sure how to deal with some of the struggles I am facing with this topic. As we all pray together, maybe the answers or at least the next steps on the path will become more clear.